Jan
9

HELP! I know u’ve heard it before!

Filed Under Incest 

My one night stand originally was just a guy to have sex with.
My personality is hard to pinpoint… I am a hip-hop diva
but I like Nascar and racing. So when this guy and I guy started
to hit it off… I wanted to slow it down a ton. But, it wasn’t
goin to work that way. Over time we were there for each other
and some of those times… it really felt nice. We were never
girlfriend/boyfriend as he continued to sleep around
and I talked to other guys, I rarely slept with any. Well,
I can’t say that.. he asked me to be his girl out of the
blue, and I said yes hesitantly, and I showed a lack of trust.
Now we are almost 2 years in… and still no progress. He
constantly wants me to go at his flow which is do whatever
he says. Since I agreed to it before, do I still have to live
up to having it his way? Its like he says ” give me your
all” but I won’t give him my all anymore if he still
is with other females, I want my all to be given to someone
that will be in my life for a long long time. So now he says”
give me my space.” I had no problems being the person
he wanted to be, but my requests were being dismissed. I
don’t understand what he is waiting for? I don’t
want him to use “she won’t give my her all”
as a reason to get rid of me… cause I don’t feel right
that he has other girls! It makes me sick. I explained to
him that a real female wouldn’t deal with a boyfriend
who did this to a girl, so why should I have to deal with it.
i think it makes me look weak. I have to take a stand but I don’t
want to lose him. If I do lose him, I know it was his loss…
but why isn’t this easier? What really gets me is when
he says that he misses me and needs me and loves me… but
he doesn’t show it when we are together. Am I dealing
with someone who talks and doesnt put up? Anywho… I’m
sure all the responses are things I’ve heard before…
but it was good to vent.

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